I love watching them run and play. Such innocense. On the playgound it doesn't matter how much money you have, what rank your father or mother is. What race or cultural background you come from. To these children all that matters is who's IT in the best game of freeze tag. I watch these little girls and boys and wish it could be that way for all children. I am glad of their innocense. Of making fast friends at the playground. running and playing as if they have known each other for years. Just having fun without a care in the world. All too soon they will grow up and the world to them will be a different place. I wish I could keep them this carefree forever. I will try to as long as I can. Even in Carylanne's not so carefree life, her diabetes didn't matter today. Mom was on watch. She could just play and be one of the kids. She knows I have it covered. I will give her the appropriate snack before and after. I will remind her to check her Bg discreetly as she gets a drink. She can concentrate on getting to Goo and being IT. She can make friends. Run around crazy and enjoy the cool breezes. When she is tired she can sleep well because she knows somewhere in her sleep she will be checked and be safe from lows and highs. She trusts me to be there for her. She has her sister as well. They watch out for one another. I see them checking to see where the other one is. Christianne asking her sister if she is ok when she falls. It is heartwarming. Through the sibling rivalry and the bickering, they truly love one another.
Someday it will all change. They will be adults. Making their own decisions. spreading their wings. I pray they will always look out for each other just like on that playground today. Carylanne will have to make her own decisions on her care. How she is going to control her disease Will she "cheat", will she forget to check. She knows I will teach her everything she needs to know and be her safety net when she stumbles because that is what moms do. But I love watching them be children. Playing, laughing and enjoying the good times. Think I will go watch them build their castles and remember them as Princesses always. Give them big hugs, butterfly kisses and tell them how much I love them.